Lets get this party started I love all thats goin on in ur head You're a genius Howd u come up with that riff Youre so smart and cool Everyone is copyin you Ur style is impeccable I bet everyone wants to be you - this isnt love bombing theres no bombing going on in my heart I just think you're so cool Im so happy to be talkin to yoy Wont u love me back Dont tell me this is part of ur act fine ill just kill myself to save u from the slack -- you are perfect its always summer when youre around life cant get any funner i love u till i die i wont make u cry this is as good as it seems I'll fulfil all ur dreams you're gonna play at sold out stadium tours you're gonna have them crammed in at the doors ur so talented and so unique your charisma and grace will never peak

im so sorry i always act this way i just really want you. to. stay i never learned how to make a friend and now it seems im at my end forgive my little inconsistencies sorry u have to help me up from off my knees i pity myself and theres no cure always thought id get better but now im not. so. sure -- depression is one. hell of a drug. i come for love and hugs and end up rolled up in a rug.

On the spectrum Off the rails Tell me why I always fail Sing a song Of heartbreak and loss Show me how To pay the cost - so we go out to the town dying faces all around hissing whispers masked in fear gimme a message when ur near - Work till death To stay alive Where's it written Its so bad to die Make it matter Make it make sense I'm never living In present tense - static shocks keep me alive ill be electrified till i die shuttered window open door broken floorboard say no more lay me down upon the tile shake your fists to hide your smile i never thought i'd live it down i never thought you'd come back round

How to avoid pain. Never talk to anyone. Never have a girlfriend or boyfriend Never get married Don't have kids Dont leave your room Live in the basement.never travel Your culture is right All the others are wrong -- Cut yourself to feel better Live only online Don't go outside Don't go outside. Trust nobody. Dont trust yourself. Kill yourself Feel better. -- Dont eat healthy avoid all vegetables dont go for walks dont ever swim dont go to the gym dont listen to music never talk to anybody dont go for coffees

i Carve a 35 into my leg over a year since i last had sex I'm just alive To pay my rent I don't go outside Cause i have no friends ! Nothing prepared me for what comes next Years of work just to still be depressed Every way to cope just makes me worse I drink and bleed, waiting for the hearse. - Stagger pattern Blinding lights Deepened cutting drawn out fights Nothing ever Getting better Pull the lever its light as a feather - Ages pass Its still the same No moving forward In this no win game Its all a struggle Without reward Hell is the only place i can afford send me back there at your leisure we both know this isnt getting any better sick of pretending i can be saved when every year has me more depraved - Stagger pattern Blinding lights Deepened cutting drawn out fights Nothing ever Getting better Pull the lever its light as a feather

we're all worth something nobody knows whats going on do what u can while u can never doubt yourself doubt everyone else nothings as hard as it seems talent doesnt exist just do it just try your better than everyone else youre better than you know failure doesnt matter were all gonna die in the end do what u can while u can i love you

i cant get hurt when theres nothing around i cant get hurt if theres no one around x2 -- Cut off my fingers To spite my face Killing my faces To hide my disgrace wearing a mask to hide my shame lying to people nobody knows my name -- i cant get hurt when theres nothing around i cant get hurt if theres no one around x2 -- its better like this safe and clear nobody near me nobody to fear cut off all contact u dont message me anyway i always started the talk so its better off this way why do u leave me on read till i wish i was dead they post on their story like im nothing but lonely i just want a friend got no ill intentions left I won't make u feel bad this all makes me feel bad -- i cant get hurt when theres nothing around i cant get hurt if theres no one around x2

Burn it down And start again Maybe then We can be friends If i knew How it would go I never would Have talked to you silly days have come and gone now theyre only sad and long work my fingers to the bone feeling like im all alone - When u look Like this U break a lot of mirrors When u talk like me U make no-one jealous when u hate yourself everyone agrees gliding over broken tile soaring over trees -- burn it down and let it smulder every day im gettin older chances that i thought i had now are mostly in the past too old now to start anew if only i'd known the truth cowardly until the last now we're living in the past - When u feel Like this U always feel jealous When u speak like me everyone thinks ur callous when u hate yourself everyone agrees soaring thru abandoned cities seeing whats to see - burn it down let them rebuild too old now to hold the shield they dont know what it took they dont care they never looked never saw how it went how it was i lost all my friends i sacrificed my whole life just to end up with no life - When u act Like this U always regret what u did before opening those doors when u love too freely anyone can come in they might trash the place and leave u in the bin when u are so young u dont know whats at stake u make evry mistake just to fill ur plate if i had known now what was gonna happen maybe it would be not as catastrophic

everyones havin fun but me everyones in love but me no matter what i do no matter who i know whys it always feel like this why i always feel like shit sip a drink to keep me alive now that i am too old to die -- passed the point of no return long nights passing watch it all burn no need to come back here burn it down watch it dissapear flying over shrouded lawns the life i had is already gone find a routine make it work daily becoming another drunken jerk - finer whites lightning struck kites sudden darkness embattled nights drink until i sleep poison myself till i weep nothin left to hold onto all my options are dreadful silence at long last lets hope this lasts look up the long cast watch the time go by fast nothins faster than dyin alone nothins slower than waiting by the phone

i feel sad when u wont talk to me ur all i see ur all i wanna be i copy u cause i know im bad im broken and im always sad is it bad to copy u do like u do i just wanna make u proud why wont u love me like i love u why wont u smile at me like u used to -- you realised im broken i realised i shouldnt have spoken i shuldnt have told u what happened cause what happened was horrible was unforgettable was unforgivable tho it wasnt my fault it recontextualises me as a broken person as a victim with an excues u dont like that you dont like that you dont like me u dont like it u dont like to see i wish id shut up i wish id stayed stoic i wish id died i wish id lied ill never tell the truth to you again. its not worth it not worth it truths not worth shit for the broken.

My biggest regret is ever being born And second up is everything I've done nothing ive done has brought me any good gone my whole life being misunderstood -- i hate my life and i hate my face i hate my job and i hate this place i hate the world and i hate my dad i hate my mum and the life i shouldve had i hate my body and i hate my guts i hate my soul and I hate my nuts i hate the way that you tlk to me i hate the person that I know I'll never be - my body is ruined my brains a mess i dont have any money to relieve stress shiver me timbers comb back the debris nobody else can see how much i hate me -- i hate my life and i hate my face i hate my job and i hate this place i hate the world and i hate my dad i hate my mum and the life i shouldve had i hate my body and i hate my guts i hate my soul and I hate my nuts i hate the way that you tlk to me i hate the person that I know I'll never be

never tell me what to do unless u want to end up dead too stuttered statements always carry the most weight dont make me wait i hav no patience i smell your fragrance it stinks of death or is that ur breath figure 8 i bide my time i know youll never be on time -- sucker punch suck this lunch fukk my head im goin to bed face it now ill tell yu how to fake a sicknes get off this shit list -- fuck the office report to work admit that u are just a jerk never go home never marry never smile open carry always be polite always suck it always give a shit always eat shit feathers tickle on your face ill never tell you how to leave this place

I'm the problem I'm glad you agree I need someone who supports me And it's not gonna be me Dissapointment fills my veins Like Never ending growing pains I try to smile when it rains W no umbrella, xovered in rusting chains That drag me down into the earth Into the molten center of dirt My memory will never revert To how it was before i was hurt I wish i learned how to accept I say i do but secretly kept The pain i felt inside until It ate me up till nothings left x2 I lowered my expectations down Into the very bowels of hell But still im dissapointed by Everything in my life My life is all regrets Things i shouldve done better I wanna take them back But one leads to another Then i wish i was never born Cause it was all downhill from there Nothings been good I made all the mistakes All the shit that happened to me Wasnt my fault But it still happened It was my fault It wasnt my fault doesn't mean a thing cause im in control now and im not doing anything -- Rats under my floor boards Won't let me sleep Insects under my skin I Can't even blink From the darkness Rises waves Of pain that permeate My bleeding brain Ulcerated organs I can't eat shit Everything hurts How long till I'm dead Creatures from fairytales Come out of the sky And haunt my dreams With ululating cries -- So here js simething U will not understand I wish j was dead But i dont have a plan Every night I drink till i sleep I cut my skin dayly And watch the blood weep I have a dead affect No smile in my heart I have noone to talk to My life is a farce I wish i was dead Every day of the week But im too weak to do it And im too weak to speak -- Just tell me how to move tell me how to smile tell me how to feel tell me how to shine shout at me until im right cut away the bad at night shower in the rays of day keep me under lock and key keep me under lock and key