I'm the problem
I'm glad you agree
I need someone who supports me
And it's not gonna be me

Dissapointment fills my veins
Like Never ending growing pains

I try to smile when it rains
W no umbrella, xovered in rusting chains

That drag me down into the earth
Into the molten center of dirt

My memory will never revert
To how it was before i was hurt

I wish i learned how to accept
I say i do but secretly kept

The pain i felt inside until
It ate me up till nothings left
x2

I lowered my expectations down
Into the very bowels of hell

But still im dissapointed by
Everything in my life

My life is all regrets
Things i shouldve done better
I wanna take them back
But one leads to another

Then i wish i was never born
Cause it was all downhill from there

Nothings been good
I made all the mistakes
All the shit that happened to me
Wasnt my fault

But it still happened
It was my fault

It wasnt my fault
doesn't mean a thing
cause im in control now
and im not doing anything
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Rats under my floor boards
Won't let me sleep
Insects under my skin
I Can't even blink

From the darkness
Rises waves Of pain
that permeate
My bleeding brain

Ulcerated organs
I can't eat shit
Everything hurts
How long till I'm dead

Creatures from fairytales
Come out of the sky
And haunt my dreams
With ululating cries

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So here js simething
U will not understand
I wish j was dead
But i dont have a plan

Every night
I drink till i sleep
I cut my skin dayly
And watch the blood weep

I have a dead affect
No smile in my heart
I have noone to talk to
My life is a farce

I wish i was dead
Every day of the week
But im too weak to do it
And im too weak to speak

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Just tell me how to move
tell me how to smile
tell me how to feel
tell me how to shine

shout at me until im right
cut away the bad at night
shower in the rays of day
keep me under lock and key

keep me under lock and key